You must reach the answer
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“Makanya belajar agama yang benar, ke ahlinya.”
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I was born Muslim. I spent nine years in Islamic schools. Somehow, once I disagree, all of that stops counting. I must have learned the wrong version, asked the wrong person, or failed to understand something.
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Maybe I did misunderstand a particular passage. Then show me. Explain the word, the source, the argument. There is something to discuss there. But if the entire evidence for my misunderstanding is that I no longer believe, you have already decided what understanding is allowed to produce.
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That is what I mean by “you will” and “you must.”
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In mathematics, a proof gives you steps you can examine. Given the assumptions, the conclusion follows. In science, established results have evidence behind them and conditions under which they can be checked. Neither field becomes magically free of mistakes or stubborn people. The point is that there is something to inspect beyond whether the answer reassures the institution.
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The religious “learning” I keep encountering begins with a requirement: the religion must come out true and good. Everything you learn has to fit inside that. You can ask questions, apparently, as long as the questions eventually bring you home.
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What happens if I study carefully and become less convinced? What happens if the explanation is clear and I still find the rule cruel?
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“Study more” cannot answer that forever.
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I do not think nine years of religious schooling makes me automatically right. I think it makes the assumption that I never bothered to learn especially insulting. Disagreement deserves an answer that engages with what I actually said.
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If someone can only recognize my understanding after I agree with them, agreement is what they are testing.